I didn’t get the job, by the way. I only had the interviw this morning and they told is this afternoon…not right now anyway, my colleague got it, but another position should opening in a couple of months and if it does its pretty much mine. I just wish they had waited a little while to tell us, because dinner with my team wouldn’t have been so unbearable.
I don’t even know why I’m upset. My feed back was great, they said there were no criticisms or negatives and there was no constriction, I couldn’t have done anything differently. He just had more experience, so it’s fair enough really.
They’re going to prepare me for when the position comes up again anyway, starting off with a first aid course.
So why then, after feeling like I did this morning and after all this, am I crying?
Why do I feel so crap?
Why do I hate who I am so much?
(i’m pretty sure this could partly be linked to that fact that I’m pretty sure I have SAD and the lack of Sun and heat is making me depressed)